Yesterday, however, threw me for a loop. I woke up feeling dizzy and woozy. I couldn't stand up straight and my stomach was very upset. I was sure I was coming down with the flu or the nasty virus that's knocked my sister out for more than a week.
So, I spent nearly the entire day lying down. When I wasn't in bed, I watched movies. "The Duchess" came on Netflix, and I watched it between naps. I also put my favorite of the moment, "Wall-E" in the DVD player and let it keep me company as I dozed off. There's something about that charming little droid that makes me feel better. I think it's his "humanity". Weird.
I also think I'm a little heart-sick. I'm using the computer a lot right now. Of course it's a constant at work, but now that I'm working with Twitter and Facebook at home so much, I am turning to it more and more. I think I am trying to connect my heart with it, instead of human beings (or even dogs) right now. It's how I operate. If I can connect my heart to my work, my friends, my interests, then I feel the path is clear to proceed.
But computers have no hearts. And I think I am soaking in too much negative electronic energy.
Probably the best solution would be a retreat to a spa for a week. Yeah, that's it. Got any free week-long passes to a spa you can give me? Wouldn't a nice massage, facial, manicure, pedicure, mud bath, scouring scrub and sauna push that electronic toxicity out of my pores?
This will be the first year since I arrived at my job, that we won't have the Mariners baseball games interrupting my air shift for half the year. I was allowed to leave at 6 PM those days that baseball took over the airwaves.
Those days are gone.
Oh well....
3 comments:
Yes! Some "you" time sounds terrific! Are you still going dancing? That would be some nice face time. I've SO been craving to learn how to waltz for some reason.
There's a waltz 3 advanced turning and pivots class I want to take that starts next month, but I haven't been going out to dances too much.
I think it's guilt over leaving the dogs alone, and just being tired of not being in a relationship. I feel like I'm always "searching".
But you're right. Dancing always knocks malaise out of my soul.
For the past half hour, I've been searching online for a retreat for a couple of days. I've been so sick, yes, but I haven't had a real vacation since you and Linda gave me that spa weekend in 2005. Looks like Portugal might not happen right now. I need a break, at least for a couple of days.
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